A wish

I miss the place I once called my home ,
I am still struggling with this love syndrome ,
I cannot get past your beautiful smile ,
Hence I cried a river as huge as Nile,
I miss that warmth which I found in your arm ,
I feel like an outcast in this lonely farm ,
Thus I stand crying in this bewildered rain ,
All I ever wish is for you to be mine again.

I crave for your calls and I miss those text,
You forgot me and somehow moved onto next,
I loved you hard enough to let you go ,
Was I this stupid for you to be so ?
I want you to hold my hand and to hug me tight ,
That would be enough to picture a future so bright ,
But reality struck me down with pain,
All I ever wish is for you to be mine again.

You blame me for all your losses and you hate me the same ,
Is my love that filthy to run away from that blame ?
I laid down my heart at your feet ,
Despise my efforts I just lost the street ,
Without the address how will I ever reach back ,
There must be something that I presumably lack ,
I loved you hard and considered you my main,
All I ever wish is for you to be mine again.

I cannot bring myself to murder the person that lies within ,
I cannot stop loving you who's nothing less than my own kin,
Keeping you happy was my only goal in life,
But this stupid heart wanted to see you as my wife ,
You are in love with someone else today ,
All I can wish for you is that your happiness stays abay ,
You are happy and that's enough for me to cross the lane ,
No I don't wish for you to be mine again .

The lost battle

Atrocious were my measures when it came to you ,
Love was the treasure I shared to few ,
Considering me an outcast you left me alone ,
That was the day when I learned a lesson so new .
My voice was terrible so was my dance ,
Having you beside me was never really a chance ,
Love was a bullet that struck down my heart ,
And thus the layers of sadness fell apart .
Misery was a treasure I kept for so long ,
I never really knew I would sing a song .
But the fire within me burned my soul ,
And thus I began to fill the huge hole .
Nostalgic were those lamp lights that burned so bright ,
Beautiful was the sky until I reached the heights .
My world seem to shatter slowly away ,
Burning so crimson every night and day .
While I loved her inside out she was fishing ,
My dreams about her ended at kissing ,
I won every damn battle I faced so far ,
But she was the only trophy in my cabinet that's missing !

The Lost Love

Meeting you was beyond my fate ,
To hold back it was really late !
Your smile captivated my heart ,
And so my layers fell apart .
I wonder if you felt the same ,
Coz as of today you hate my name .
You are the only cure that remains ,
Memories are the only part of you that sustains .
Water never rolled down these eye ,
How many times am I going to lie !
All that remains are the ashes of our past ,
And once we believed that it will forever last .
I wonder if you will feel the same ever again ?
You were a tune that never left my brain .
Somewhere I can still hear you inside ,
Though the song is over and so is our ride !
It's lost and it's gone for good I hope ,
Time replays the past and says nope !
You seem to visit me every morning at my bedside ,
There is nothing better than that sight .
All I wish is that it could be true for one last time ,
But even looking back at it now is a crime .
I evolved into someone different all together ,
Oh look at the clouds and this romantic weather .
I seem to miss you severely as time passes by my side ,
But I have accepted the fact to which I once denied .
My soul seems to crave for your presence ,
My heart is missing those nostalgic essence .
I met you the other day to clear some facts and doubt ,
But it seemed like there was a drought !
The lake once filled with the emotions was gone ,
That is how we met our dusk after the dawn .
You thought I came to tell you something that will last ,
But I came to make my future from my past .
I wanted to hug you and soak you like a foam ,
And to whisper in your ears that it's good to be home !
But things didn't turned out good that day ,
I cried a 1000 deaths just to say .
Your pain is relatively small as it may fade ,
But mine is piercing through like a blade !
Since my sufferings are given by your hands ,
I will cherish them until they disbands .
Deep down it pains in the dark ,
You changed someone who was kinda lark .
I know you from the rate of your breaths ,
Just how many times I ll have to overcome these deaths !
I wish to meet you years later one day in a pub ,
Maybe we ll talk about you in that club .
I ll tell you about my daughter with your name ,
And we ll laugh reliving the moments so same .
But all this is what we call a dream I think,
Your presence is felt everytime I blink .
I wish you accomplish all your goals ,
I wish one of them is blending our souls !
We met like a breeze of the fire ,
That burned in us with lovely desire .
Our partnership grew up like a pair of dove ,
It's special don't you think ? MY LOST LOVE !

Death Note

It's been a while since we last met ,

Thinking of which makes me upset !

I wonder if you are doing fine ?

Oh I wish I could still call you mine !

Yet I wait for your doubts to clear,

I know you don't want to overcome this fear .

Do you still remember our walks down the lane ?

I never imagined that loving you would end up in vain !

I longed for your soul and carved yours onto mine ,

Is this the end of our tale that once looked so divine !

I remember the pleasure you got when you looked at my smile ,

I was your pendulum and you were my dial !

How could you forget all this my love of the east ,

Don't you know I am starving for your presence at my feast .

Come and claim my heart again please !

I am unable to counter this heavy unease .

I am shocked to know that you love someone else today !

Maybe that's why you are keeping me far away .

Does he cares for you more than i ever did ? 

Or is it an agreement on which you bid .

Does he calms you enough for you to control your asthma ?

Or is it just a possible lie for you to overcome this dilemma ?

Can loving you be so painful and reliving altogether ?

But storms are nothing without a raining weather !

I love the way I know you won't return ,

But against all the logics and hopes I run !

I want to hate you for what I suffered ,

But not every story runs without being buffered !

You won't find that warmth in him no matter what !

Maybe this is the point to place the full stop .

I may not be the best for you to love me back ,

But once you said we all are Easter eggs with a crack !

You underestimated my love and my care ,

I ll keep loving you until greyish are my hair !

It's hard to tell you how I feel without you my soulful light,  (channa mereya - light of my soul)

I am ready to stand against my emotions and this fight !

You were the only hope for me to be ecstatic ,

But the hopes are dead so am I emphatic .

In the end I would love to quote this last quote ,

I love you and you define me , MY DEATH NOTE !

Pain of love

Saw her sad and alone
She was so illness prone
She used to smile while talking to me
But she no longer picks up her phone
I tried helping her like her friend
But her pain would never end
She used to cry alone in the corner
But she would happily pretend
She found herself alone in the race
This was something she couldn't face
So I became her friend of life
Saving the game like an ace
She was falling off the sky without any hope
I jumped in, tied up in rope
She held my hand like a friend
And the loving business went too dope
Her smile was the reason I SURVIVED
Breaking the darkness thus I strived
She was alone and I can't let her cry
Therefore this painful measure was thus derived
She loved me once like world apart
She called me friend and killed that part
Yet I stayed for her happiness all this while
This was thus the delivery of dagger to my heart
I know one day she ll smile and leave
A simple bye would be all I could weave
That would be day of my freedom from this pain
That would be the last of my gorgeous eve
For her happiness I killed my own dream
She never asked for this part of the cream
Can someone really love someone like this
I can't believe this love so upstream
She was my baby girl and I was her boy
All we felt for each other was just joy
But things change so drastically in moments of time
All that remained was that beautiful toy
I can't forgive her ever for her deeds
But love grew within me like those seeds
I loved her enough for her to smile
Somehow seeing her smile was one of my basic needs
Her happiness brought me this pleasure
It all seemed like my own treasure
But knowing that I was no longer the same for her
Became the reason for the end of our leisure
We die to love and love to die
That's our destiny which we can't deny
I wish things became the way they were
And all this would just be a lie
Her smile is the blessing like a rain
It's the blood I hate, not the stain
This is what true love is my friend
You find ECSTASY IN THIS LOVELY PAIN ❤

Glory of pain

Finally she got the fame
After playing with my name
All that was left were ashes
Surely she won the game
Unknowingly she lost my presence
Her ego was important more than my essence
I was shocked at this behavior
She forgot my love along with her lessons
She changed like the time changes in a day
There was a time when she would easily stay
All I wanted was her to be the same
But all I could do was just to pray
I hated her with all I could
But I loved her the way I should
I know she will need me once for sure
I would help her if I would
But my self respect would keep me poking high and low
Asking me questions as to why doing so
All I could reply with would just be smile
And my soul would ask me to just let her go
I wasn't so sure of all this back then
I didn't knew what to do when
I was the one looking for her in every1 who passed by
While she would carry crushes about new men
She killed me off with her attitude and her ego
I never felt like a man but more of a Lego
She must be cursing me in her head
Stating things like here we go
She stabbed my heart over and over again without any pain
And yet I was deluded enough to call her my main
But remember this my dear friend....,
You can't make a rainbow without a little rain !